Have you ever thought about death and it's ramifications. We all know life is beautiful and death is a dark truth, NAKED TRUTH. Anyhow have you ever thought what is death or what will happen if you die the very next moment. You are walking on the road with your ipod plugged in your ears, or may be you are driving back with your family after a lovely dinner or may be simply sleeping and dreaming about your future and the very next moment your are no more in this world. You are dead. Your ambitions are dead, you are left alone. Have you ever had this feeling ? Well i am not aware what happens after death but the thought of life becoming silent still makes me numb. Naked truth lynching your dreams makes me a handicapped mute spectator. Last night I had this feeling that this could be my last night in this world. Strange isn't it.
One of my friend had called up while I was about to sleep and we summed up our sweet talks with a horrific note that my hometown has a risk of an earthquake. Few days ago(11/08/2009), Kolkata had witnessed some mild tremors so it was quite likely. I acted as a bold and brave man and told that I don't fear death. Death is inevitable but reality came into picture once the phone went silent. First few minutes were quite normal but the real drama started when I focused my eyes on the revolving dark fan blades. I was in a sudden grip of death and the fear of being trapped in a earthquake massacre. I know how tremors behave as I was in Baroda during my graduation when Gujarat was hit by the deadly earth quake on Indian Republic Day, 26/01/2001 . I was ling on the floor and reading my newspaper suddenly things started shaking, first few seconds it was quite hilarious to me. After a while when i heard people shouting earthquake, earthquake i realized it was not a funny dream and i ran out of my house without thinking of anything. I was lucky enough and my near and dear ones too but there were number of people, families who were not so fortunate to live again. By now I was making plans how would I run to save my life with my parents. I live on the top floor and suddenly I was happy that even if the house crushes I would be safe with my family. I was so selfish for a moment that I didn't care about the families living in the ground floor. Thankfully I never went to any architectural otherwise i was sure to flunk, my small and irrational brain forgot the roof and the solid terrace to crush me and my family. Later on I figured out that even if I run taking my old parents I won't be safe outside the compound since the walking passage or the narrow lane is grilled with buildings on both sides. So I was bound to be crushed even if there is a tremor of 5/6 on the Richter scale. All these subsequent thoughts were running in parallel and I was taking small snaps simultaneously. I would get up in a while and check if I am alive and if things are pretty normal or not. I was scared to see that I have couple of dreams that are still unfulfilled and I want to do them before I die. I wanted to cry but I am novice there.
I woke up in the morning with a sudden jolt though it was not the tremor but it was the fear. I was happy to see that i was still alive and my parents were fighting over a cup of tea. Things were normal in my life but reality was that i was petrified and i was engulfed in the cyclone of fear. I was lucky but what about others, do they run out of their luck ? What about that child who is orphaned before he could realize what are parents for, What about those people who are killed in the name of money, god, revenge, greed etc. May be we should take our lives seriously and respect it's presence.
One of my friend had called up while I was about to sleep and we summed up our sweet talks with a horrific note that my hometown has a risk of an earthquake. Few days ago(11/08/2009), Kolkata had witnessed some mild tremors so it was quite likely. I acted as a bold and brave man and told that I don't fear death. Death is inevitable but reality came into picture once the phone went silent. First few minutes were quite normal but the real drama started when I focused my eyes on the revolving dark fan blades. I was in a sudden grip of death and the fear of being trapped in a earthquake massacre. I know how tremors behave as I was in Baroda during my graduation when Gujarat was hit by the deadly earth quake on Indian Republic Day, 26/01/2001 . I was ling on the floor and reading my newspaper suddenly things started shaking, first few seconds it was quite hilarious to me. After a while when i heard people shouting earthquake, earthquake i realized it was not a funny dream and i ran out of my house without thinking of anything. I was lucky enough and my near and dear ones too but there were number of people, families who were not so fortunate to live again. By now I was making plans how would I run to save my life with my parents. I live on the top floor and suddenly I was happy that even if the house crushes I would be safe with my family. I was so selfish for a moment that I didn't care about the families living in the ground floor. Thankfully I never went to any architectural otherwise i was sure to flunk, my small and irrational brain forgot the roof and the solid terrace to crush me and my family. Later on I figured out that even if I run taking my old parents I won't be safe outside the compound since the walking passage or the narrow lane is grilled with buildings on both sides. So I was bound to be crushed even if there is a tremor of 5/6 on the Richter scale. All these subsequent thoughts were running in parallel and I was taking small snaps simultaneously. I would get up in a while and check if I am alive and if things are pretty normal or not. I was scared to see that I have couple of dreams that are still unfulfilled and I want to do them before I die. I wanted to cry but I am novice there.
I woke up in the morning with a sudden jolt though it was not the tremor but it was the fear. I was happy to see that i was still alive and my parents were fighting over a cup of tea. Things were normal in my life but reality was that i was petrified and i was engulfed in the cyclone of fear. I was lucky but what about others, do they run out of their luck ? What about that child who is orphaned before he could realize what are parents for, What about those people who are killed in the name of money, god, revenge, greed etc. May be we should take our lives seriously and respect it's presence.
I think i will end up with Mr. Steve Jobs thoughts that he delivered to the students of Stanford,
"When I was 17, I read a quote that went something like: "If you live each day as if it was your last, someday you'll most certainly be right." It made an impression on me, and since then, for the past 33 years, I have looked in the mirror every morning and asked myself: "If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?" And whenever the answer has been "No" for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something."
To this I would love to end up by saying in his own words what is Life and Death all about,
"No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don't want to die
to get there. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because Death is very likely the single best invention of Life. It is Life's change agent. It clears out the old to make way for the new. Right now the new is you, but someday not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away.Sorry to be so dramatic, but it is quite true."
You know I always tell a friend that we take our life for granted.
That day I visited hospital for some annual test & saw so many ill people and realized that I take my good health for granted!!! I keep cribbing to lose weight but the fact is that there are people who are in a position where things are beyond their control...
Frankly speaking I don't think about death or how it can come et. al. We have one life we shud live it to the hilt without fearing about the future not that am saying that we shouldn't value it...
BTW I can understand ur earthquake fear, My parents were in Jamnagar at that time but buddy what has to happen will happen us se pehle kyun tension???
True Smita what you have said and i appreciate your viewpoints. Yes its one life and i make a point to have a blast but then it's the fear of family that keeps creeping in . In this case the earthquake was a subject matter but the real fear is for my family/my parents. I know we don't have any control on death but then Love is Love whether it be for your goals,family or near and dear ones.
Yes we should take our life seriously but must make a point to keep a smile.
keep rocking,
PN.
Death..The ultimate truth of life.. or can say final destination of a journey called LIFE.. Every one knows the fact that one day they have to reach there but no1 wants to go there..
And am agree wid SMITA dat we always granted gud things in life jst coz we r having thm without any hardship..
At the end of the day all we can do is to value our life as well as others lives also..to help needy and poor people.. to bring smile on sumones face.. to help orphanage and poor kids.. these are the things which can give others people a reason to live their lives happily and this wud definitely gives us a inner happiness..
take care PN..
Thanks DE/EM
well we don't always take things granted but we tend to do most of the times. Once we know the importance we are fine, trust me. i do agree tht we shuld help the poor and needy but then it is not what i was thinking. on another note i believe in Live and let live funda.
Inner happiness that such a deceiving word but i understand wht u want to say and get well soon..
keep rocking,
PN.